8/12/11

You know, most people find rainy days depressing. Having to stay inside when you really wanna be out in the open air, doing stuff with your day. I like rainy days. Being inside in the warmth when out there is freezing cold and wet. Makes you feel safe, and i like feeling safe. I can apply that to every aspect of my life.. being safe. I keep people at a safe distance from me, i don't like to get too close to people. Because they always leave, right? I keep wondering to myself though, what if there was someone who didn't leave, would i open up to them? Would i show them who i really am? God that's so cliche, "showing the real you" who is the real you? I mean, people say it all the time, but they act the same as they did before?
Someday i'm gonna let my guard down, someday i'm gonna stop looking at people wondering how they're gonna ruin my life, or tear me down. I miss out on so many good things in life, i know i do, because it's so hard to let people in.
I don't even know why i'm telling you guys this (whoever actually reads this crap) i guess, for me, speaking to complete strangers (or typing rather) is alot easier than talking to people i know. Plus, writing it out seems to be some kinda therapy for me. The blogs called wave of thought, right? Well this is my massive wave of thought.

 The lyrics to "Float On" By Modest Mouse have been wandering in and out of my head today, it goes "I backed my car into a cop car the other day, well, he just drove off - sometimes life's okay, I ran my mouth off a bit too much, ah what did I say? Well, you just laughed it off and it was all okay." I let my mind wander too far, too often. Maybe i should just, well, laugh things off, and not stress over them so much. Just, you know, float on..