Higher Love

Today i'm listening to "Higher Love" by James Vincent Mc Morrow
Originally by Steve Winwood, James has done such a chilling cover of this song.

 Today, not only have i decided to give my posts a bit more of an interesting title other than the date (so original, i know) i've also been reflecting on parts of my life. I've been reflecting over all the people who have been in my life, and where they are now, and i've come to a conclusion about my own self. I've realised i'm more of a bruised person than i thought i was. It all makes sense now, how it's so easy for me to cut people out, and how i can so easily switch off emotions for people. It's all because i'm so god damn scared to get close to anyone, ever again. This is probably cliche, and totally common with like, everyone on the planet, but i deal with it in a strange way i guess. I'm not totally sure though why i decide to write this all out on here, whoever's reading. I guess, like i said before, it's some kind of therapy. It's like sending off everything i'm feeling into the open, without witnessing peoples reactions, like, it just disappears into thin air.. although it doesn't.. it's the internet..

 For me, when something goes wrong in life, i look into something else to cover up how lost or hurt im really feeling. For example, a recent breakup has pushed me into travelling places, yeah you could turn round and say that's a good thing, but is it really? Should i really mask my problems like this? I can't help it really.. i've been looking into working and travelling in canada for a year, through a programme bunac? Canada is the one place i really want to go.
 Anyway i guess you're wondering what this song has to do with it all..

 Answer?
 Everything.

 The lyrics go
Think about it, there must be higher love, down in the heart and in the stars above, without it, life is wasted time.. bring me a higher love.

 For me, this higher love, is the thing we're all looking for in life. That one idea or place in ourselves we all hope to achieve one day. Happiness? Although happiness is only a mood, it's something we all want, and when we have it, we don't appreciate it, then when it's gone and we're unhappy, we want it back? This higher love is what i'm constantly looking for, when something goes wrong, i move on so quickly to find something else to give me the same rush, or happiness, that i had before.