And here comes another year..

Okay, so whether we admit it or not, we all make new year resolutions, either in secret, or ones we share with everyone else.

For me, new years is a weird time in the year, because it has you thinking that things really do change, when really it's just another creation that man has, well, created? It's just another day?
But still, even i make resolutions..

"I will try to find myself" - the worst resolution to make, because you'll only be making it again the following year. Quite simply, you're always chasing who you want to be.

"I will stop worrying about things" i'm a worrier, always have been, always will, by telling myself to stop worrying, i am not going to change this..

"I will stop pushing people away" this, also, will never change. So it was pointless making it in the first place.

So there's a small example of my useless resolutions. Have they been completed? No.

So this year.. I will NOT make a resolution. Again.
This year, my resolution is,
"To be the exact same person i am, and do everything the way i already do"
This one, i shall manage to do.

Another post for today

Yes, two blog posts in one day..

So, today i realised something about myself, how my mood changes within an instant from being totally happy and loving the world to being rather down and slightly reflective over life. Now, whether this is just a teenage girl thing or not, i do find it rather bizarre. I also find it kinda weird how by playing one song, or one album, i'm in a different mindset than i was before listening. I guess, in a way, that's not totally weird, it's just the way music works. It has this effect on you, or at least me?

Either way, i'm feeling rather creative, so i'm going to put my James album back to the beginning and immerge myself in some artwork, and see what i come up with...

28/12/11

Today I'm listening to "Out To Get You" by James

Today i'm not quoting my favourite line, or the most meaningful line from the lyrics, or putting my own interpretation to it.
I'm taking what is said inside the album insert.

"Paranoia enforces loneliness, "here they come again""

27/12/11

Today i'm listening to "She Sings Alone" by See See Rider

Some sing alone, some just sing quietly..

Christmas Eve

Mmm hot chocolate, warm fire, good music.
This is the life!
There's something about christmas for me, reminds me of the excitement i used to get so easily as a kid, the moment you wake up and realise it's christmas day. Aww, the good old days. These days i'm just happy to enjoy being with all the family.
Have a good christmas guys :)

23/12/11

Today i'm listening to "So Here We Are" By Bloc Party

I caught a glimpse, but it's been forgotten...

21/12/11

Today i'm listening to "There Goes The Fear" by Doves

I really wish that it could be possible for every single fear to disappear. To vanish and never come back. Fears hold everyone back, the fear of not getting anywhere in life, the fear of being disappointed, or the fear of being the disappointment.

I read somewhere once,
It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not.

20/12/11

Today i'm listening to "Re-Gaining Unconciousness" by NoFX
First they put away the dealers
Keep our kids safe and off the streets
Then they put away the prostitutes
Keep married men cloistered at home
Then they shooed away the bums
Then they beat and bashed the queers
Fed us suspicions and fears
We didn't raise our voice
We didn't make a fuss
It's funny there was no one left to notice
When they came for us..

Stand up for what you believe in guys, because if you don't.. then who will?

18/12/11

Tonight i'm gonna enjoy the incredible album "Dark Side of The Moon" by no other than Pink Floyd.

This is, by far, one of THE best albums ever created.
I recommend to anyone who hasn't listened to this album..
and don't download it, go out and actually buy this on CD or Vinyl.



Pink Floyd - I salute you, your music is incredible.

16/12/11

Today i'm listening to "I Can See Through You" by The Horrors

Why do people rarely bother to get to know others below the surface? It's kinda weird how people decide whether they like someone or not based on their own idea of the person..
I see through most people, because most people see through me.

15/12/11

Today, i was actually listening to "A Thousand Years" by Christina Perri.
I have to say, i hadn't heard this until it was played in the union building at my college, and it really is refreshing to see someone come into the modern music scene like her. Someone who's music actually means something, and is generally, good music. Don't get me wrong, there's loads of music out there like this, but for it to be recognised and appreciated is what makes me smile.

There's gonna be people out there hitting the replay on songs like these. People who want to feel the way a  certain song makes them feel.
Never underestimate the power of music guys, it's the most incredible thing..

14/12/11

Today i'm listening to "The Lonliness of a Tower Crane Driver" by Elbow
Come on, tower crane driver, oh, so far to fall..

No matter how successful you think you are in life, it really doesn't mean anything if you don't have anyone to share it with. Lonliness is the worst feeling in the world.. Keep your world filled with people who mean everything to you, and don't ever, let them go.

13/12/11

Believe in the music, and everything else will fall into place..

12/12/11

Today i'm listening to "My Favourite Mistake" by Sheryl Crow

When you go it's the perfect ending, to the bad day I was just beginning..

11/12/11

Today i'm listening to "The Flame" by Cheap Trick

This song is one of them rather "mushy" rock songs that you read the lyrics and think, what is this cheesy stuff? But this song is so sad, dontcha think? Some serious emotion in these lyrics.

We all look for the flame..

10/12/11

Today i'm listening to "Celebrate" by An Emotional Fish

There's a line in this song that goes..
He claims it's dangerous to be innocent 'cause you're the victim every time..

I spent my whole high school years feeling the victim. The victim of myself, really. It's weird to think that you really can be your own worst enemy. Maybe, if people stopped feeling as if they're the victim all the time, they'd be so much happier?...You'd like to think so...

8/12/11

You know, most people find rainy days depressing. Having to stay inside when you really wanna be out in the open air, doing stuff with your day. I like rainy days. Being inside in the warmth when out there is freezing cold and wet. Makes you feel safe, and i like feeling safe. I can apply that to every aspect of my life.. being safe. I keep people at a safe distance from me, i don't like to get too close to people. Because they always leave, right? I keep wondering to myself though, what if there was someone who didn't leave, would i open up to them? Would i show them who i really am? God that's so cliche, "showing the real you" who is the real you? I mean, people say it all the time, but they act the same as they did before?
Someday i'm gonna let my guard down, someday i'm gonna stop looking at people wondering how they're gonna ruin my life, or tear me down. I miss out on so many good things in life, i know i do, because it's so hard to let people in.
I don't even know why i'm telling you guys this (whoever actually reads this crap) i guess, for me, speaking to complete strangers (or typing rather) is alot easier than talking to people i know. Plus, writing it out seems to be some kinda therapy for me. The blogs called wave of thought, right? Well this is my massive wave of thought.

 The lyrics to "Float On" By Modest Mouse have been wandering in and out of my head today, it goes "I backed my car into a cop car the other day, well, he just drove off - sometimes life's okay, I ran my mouth off a bit too much, ah what did I say? Well, you just laughed it off and it was all okay." I let my mind wander too far, too often. Maybe i should just, well, laugh things off, and not stress over them so much. Just, you know, float on..

7/12/11

Today I'm listening to "Beautiful World" by Carolina Liar

Sunlight creeps in between the curtains, lose the sheets there’s no time for sleep
I lie, I pretend ‘til I’m almost certain, It’s a beautiful world

Ever sat and thought about how weird the world is? I have. I do alot. I can't figure out most of it, but then i don't think anyone can. I just look forward to waking up in the morning starting a new day, telling myself that this day will be good.

To me, it most definately is, a beautiful world.

6/12/11

Today I'm listening to "Don't you forget about me" by Simple Minds

Personally, i think i say this to people too much...

5/12/11

Today i'm listening to "Lifeline" by Angels and Airwaves
This song is so heroic sounding. Just by listening to it i have goosebumps.
It's that incredible feeling called reassurance. Knowing that you're making the right decisions, and just by someone telling you you are, you feel reassured. We all look to the person next to us for the answers in life, expecting them to know, but they don't? None of us do.
All i can say is, when there's someone in your life who gives you this reassurance, and tells you everythings gonna be okay, and saves you from your darkest days. Never let them go.


There’s a field near the dream, I watched it grow with brightest eyes.

4/12/11

Today i'm listening to "Hear You Me" by Jimmy Eat World
This song is so beautiful, but yet so sad. I love it when a song overwhelmes you. We all need to be overwhelmed..

What would you think of me now, so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that..

1/12/11

Today i'm listening to "From the Morning" by Nick Drake
There's something special about Nick's songs, they tell a story. They're filled with mystery, and his music really is just lovely to listen to.

So look see the days, the endless coloured ways, and go play the game that you learnt, from the morning..