31st October

It's late, it's dark, i'm cold and tired. All i can say is why do i keep isolating myself?
Somebody can give a real crap about my life, and me, and what do i do? Treat them like mud on my shoe.

So tonight i'm listening to "Changes" by David Bowie

The lyric i get is I turned myself to face me, but i've never caught a glimpse, of how others must see the faker, i'm much too fast to take that test.

Don't take friendships for granted guys.. life's too short.

happiness is a destination.

Today i'm listening to "This Is How It Feels" by Inspiral Carpets

I ask myself this so many times, in my blog, in my head.. what the heck is happiness? Really..

This is how it feels to be lonely.

Just hold on until tomorrow.

Tonight i'm listening to "Brand New Day" by Forty Foot Echo

Days like this the only cure is to sleep off the bad feelings and hope tomorrow is brighter.

feeling empty.

Today i'm listening to "Drown Me Slowly" by Audioslave

What do you do when you wake up and realise you're alone?

I've got a feeling this will all go away.

mm, sweet memories

Today i'm listening to "That Time" by Regina Spektor

There's always a night, and there's always a morning after. I just wish the morning after was as good as the night.

The world at a standstill.. capture it while you can

Today i'm listening to "Dream" by Priscilla Ahn

Walking home from work at half past nine at night - when it's so calm and the whole world seems to just slow down, just has to be my favourite thing. The sun sets over the hills, there's nobody in sight, and the accompanying music makes it all the more special. I've never felt so content.

I'm even adding the video link, because this song is so damn good.

Don't write yourself off just yet

Today i'm listening to "The Middle" by Jimmy Eat World

Sometimes all it takes is for one person to say everythings OK.

Beat the devil's tattoo

Never in my life have i heard such a massive blend of so many bands squeezed into one..

Tonight i discovered the Black Rebel Motorcycle Club. Listen to some of their music and you'll question whether it's them your listening to or Led Zeppelin, T.Rex or The Black Keys..
It's amazing how alike the music is, similar riffs, similar style.. even similar lyrics.

 Although, you can't really complain, right? I mean, Led Zeppelin, T.Rex and The Black Keys are awesome.. so, i guess it's even more awesome to have them all mixed into one band. One sound.

Listen for yourself, see what you think..

A week away means nothing when you arrive home..

Today i'm listening to "Right Before My Eyes" by Cage The Elephant

Why do i keep making the same mistake over and over? Even though the consequences are 'right before my eyes'..

staring at the ceiling..

I came across a playlist tonight, it's called "songs to lie on your bed and stare at the ceiling to". Okay, so i can admit.. i do that a lot, you know, sit up late at night with really 'dreamy' music playing. It's some kind of therapy. Sounds daft, but after a hard day, when everything's gone wrong, it's all i want to do. It feels like you have forever sitting in the palm of your hands. Time slows down to the point that your racing thoughts from the day slowly develop into dreams.

-- Oh my god, yeah, it sounds like i'm turning into some mushy creative writing student.. which i'm really not! Everything for me these days has turned into a blur, there's so many options for me in my life, and i don't know which one to take. Hardly something to complain about really, there's just so much pressure to succeed these days, it's nice to have the time out late at night..


If you're ever majorly stressed, or after some peace.. try it.

Oh, to be free

Today i'm listening to "Closer to Free" by Bodeans

I love this song, simply because it points out so obviously how everybody just wants to be left to live their life how they want to. After visiting my ill grandad in hospital today, and hearing him go on and on and on about how he has to spend his day how the nurses and doctors want him to spend it, it saddened me to think that we all end up that way. We all have our freedoms taken from us at some stage..

Everybody wants to be, closer to free.

5th June 2012

Tonight i'm listening to "Roll With It" by Oasis

If you could change something about yourself, what would it be? Your appearance, your attitude to life? I'd change whatever it is about me that makes me get so stressed so easily. When it all gets on top of you and you feel trapped just has to be the worst feeling, right? I wish i had a "roll with it" attitude, life would be so much easier..

29th May 2012

Tonight i'm listening to "End of the Day" by Beck

Listening to music at night.. there's nothing better. As soon as the sun falls, the mind seems to wander.. reflecting on the day, thinking about the future, planning, analysing. It's my favourite time of the day.

26th May 2012..

What i'm listening to today : "Child For A Day" by Cat Stevens

I'd give anything to live another day as a kid.. I miss everything about being young.. the freedom, the innocence, and the fact that life didn't seem so chaotic, each day would come and go, and you wouldn't question anything.

Late on a monday night..

What I'm listening to :
"Just The Way I'm Feeling" Feeder

Wondering, hoping, dreaming, imagining.
Lonely, sad, uplifted, inspired..there's a connection somewhere..
It's just the way i'm feeling.

6/5/12

Today i'm listening to "from Grace" by Thomas Dybdahl

I heard about his really horrible story today, how he lost his wife and newborn baby in the space of a few weeks. That's pretty hard, emotionally. It's the motive behind many of his songs, which is what makes them so beautiful, and sometimes can actually bring you to tears. This song brings me to tears, but strangely, not in a sad way..

i find comfort in sadness..

Today i'm listening to "Need You Now" by Lady Antebellum

I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all..

I hate when it gets okay to be sad, okay to feel down. When it becomes comforting to be sad. Story of my life.

23/4/12

Today i'm listening to "Disintergration" by The Cure

I never said i would stay to the end.

New band guys!

Looking for a new band to explore into? Check out The Lumineers.
I recently discovered their stuff, and i haven't come across a band song yet, their self titled album was released just a couple of weeks ago, worth looking up.

Here's my personal favourite "Dead Sea". My er "Smile Song"!

lack of activity? sorry guys..

Yes, i've been away! It happens time to time..

Anyway, today i'm listening to "Home" by Foo Fighters

Not only has my time away given me a chance to reflect (yes, something i do fairly often..) but it's given me a chance to miss home. You know the saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder"? Well, it's true. I find missing home gives me a chance to really appreciate what i have. I even missed every ridiculously cheesy quote on my wall.. Which, looking at them right now, it reminds me of who i was when i put them up there in the first place, and what a dark place i was in, and how today, i'm completely different. But as many will tell you, when you've been in that place for a long time, you carry it around pretty much for the rest of your life whether it be as a distant memory in the back of your mind, or a very clear one.
 So it's pretty much the title in itself with this song for me. There's nothing better.

5/4/12, got soul?

Today i'm listening to "Piece of my Heart" by Janis Joplin

Florence Welch has actually spoke of Janis Joplin, citing her as an influence on her own music, and quoting from the interview:

"I think she really sums up the idea that soul is about putting your pain into something beautiful."

It did get me wondering, you know, what really is soul? Obviously i'm not meaning the genre.. although to describe the genre, take the quote from the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame soul is, "music that arose out of the black experience in America through the transmutation of gospel and rhythm and blues into a form of funky, secular testifying." Not quite the sort of soul we're meaning here.

When people say, "put your heart and soul into it" they mean, quite obviously, to put everything you have into it. Maybe soul is more about having this passion for what you do. This leads you back to Janis Joplin, who ripped through every lyric in her songs with such great passion and soul in her voice. She put everything she had into it.. no?

Well i think it's safe to say that Florence had it pretty bang on, because that's what great music is.. the pain felt by the artist translated into song..but i still think to have soul is to have passion. And what's life without that?

Quote for the day

True happiness can only be found when shared with others

1/4/12

Today i'm listening to "Shake It Out" by Florence + The Machine

 There's something about this song that just makes you want to open your arms out wide and sing along at the top of your voice..

i love that.

It's now or never..

 Today i'm listening to "What Tomorrow Brings" by Badly Drawn Boy

 Considering how busy i've actually been for the last two weeks, i've still had so much time to think But er -- when i say think, i mean more "thinking through"..

 You get to a stage in your life, when yeah, everything's going so well, and you're happy, but it's like, there's always something at the back of your mind. Yes, you're happy, but you're alone. Yes you're enjoying life, but will it last?

 Negative perspective or what? I can't understand how i can't just be happy. I love everything in life, and i want to do it all. In my head i'm constantly thinking about all the things i could do, and can do. I just want to do it all, like now..

 This is where todays song comes in, because it's an old cliche of "tomorrow is a new day" but it's true (obviously), you wake up in a different mood, you do something different (unless you're some recluse too afraid to step out your front door..) but most importantly, you're perspective can change. Overnight. So how you felt the day before can pretty much be yesterdays news. Live for tomorrow. Live for what will come. The only reason i'm saying this, is because, this (and music of course) is THE single thing keeping me going.

Now or never to do everything you wanna do guys..

18/3/12

Today i'm listening to "Love is Noise" by The Verve

It's a lot of things, but if there's one thing i'm sure of, love is pain.

13/3/12

Today i'm listening to "We Will Not Be Lovers" by The Waterboys

Words are your weapon, lies are your defence.

7/3/12

Today i'm listening to "I Do" by Jude

This is just the sweetest song. And the lyrics are so lovely..
Old friendships fade away, love falls apart But you've not spent a single day outside my heart And, there's just one more dream that I have left for you I hope you're smiling when he turns around and says "I do"

He seems to make it sound so easy to move on and still be happy for an ex or a former friend. It should be like this, but bitterness and jealousy always manages to make an appearance..

5/3/12

Today i'm listening to "The Sun and Moon" by Cursive

The sun and moon are a pretty long way away from each other, creating a distance from things, and people, just reflects the hurt. It doesn't heal..

The melody is at the hands of the pianist.

My love of piano has pretty much taken over the last couple of weeks. And this piece just caputures so much beauty from the piano itself. Ludovico Einaudi is my piano hero.. not kidding, i do actually have one of those..

It's amazing, no matter how much rock or punk i listen to (which is a lot!) piano always will be my first love when it comes to music. It's so stripped down and simple, exposing every part of you, but also holding some sort of mystery, because piano music has such a mysterious, if not, slightly distant sound.
Because i play myself, i always imagine myself at the piano hearing this song, which gives me some kind of weird connection.
 Yet again, i am stunned at the ongoing mysterious ways of music..

27/2/12, just another day

Hey guys, today i'm listening to "I'm Set Free" by Velvet Underground

I've been set free and I've been bound , to the memories of yesterday's clouds
I've been set free and I've been bound, and now I'm set free
I'm set free , I'm set free to find a new illusion..

 Lou reed once said
"I've concentrated on music pretty much to the exclusion of other things" which got me thinking, maybe i'm just the same. I mean, everything in life for me comes second to music. I'm beginning to wonder if this is actually healthy..

if only the world, really could, live as one..

Today i'm listening to "Imagine" by John Lennon
Eva Cassidy did a great, rather chilling cover of this song.

You may say i'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.

To all those desperately seeking love..

..please, don't seek for it.

 If there's one thing i've learnt over the past couple of months, it's this..
If you have any sort of doubt over a person, and not sure whether you can fully trust them. Please, go with your instinct, and quit while you're ahead.
 It's amazing how much we all underestimate our own judgement.

 So, for every failed relationship you guys out there have. Remember that musics always going to be there to catch your fall. So will chocolate and ice cream...

This week i've been listening to Thirteen Senses. Specifically, their album "The Invitation".
Now, this album is definately one to seek out if it isn't already sitting on your cd shelf.. Not only are the lyrics so involved, each individual song is like a melodic loveliness to sink into. My advice is to buy this album, stick it on your stereo, your laptop or your phone (or whatever it is you guys use to listen to music), and let yourself be carried away by these amazing songs.

Silence is golden

So, today, possibly for the first time in, well...definately a long time. I actually enjoyed a day of silence. I haven't even gone anywhere near my albums, my records, my record player, or any other music playing device for that matter.

 It's amazing how much you can actually clear your mind in silence. I've never felt so peaceful. All this will change tomorrow morning of course when i wake up to the sound of Cheap Trick blasting out my stereo (Busted album, of course). But for all the days i spend dedicating myself to the sound of music, i guess you could say, it's truly blissful to just have one day, of silence.
 I highly recommend it.

Why cry?

Today i'm listening to "Why Cry" by The Panic Channel

If only Perry Farrell existed in this band..
Anyway, there's a lyric in this song that is so relative right now, it's something i'd probably say
"I learned my lesson, i won't give my heart out, without suspecting"..

I so wish that lyrics could just, change everything.

It's true, you get what you give..

Today i'm listening to "You Get What You Give" by New Radicals

One of my favourite lyrics is the open to this song,
Wake up kids, we've got the dreamers disease.

I guess this is mainly because i'm a bit of a dreamer. And by that i mean, i'm always creating a perfect world inside my head, yeah it sounds a bit strange. You find yourself asking, how could you imagine a perfect world when the one you live in is anything but? It's quite simple really, the perfect world i create is normally just imagining myself happy.

just trying to find my way..

Today i'm listening to "Find My Way" by Lifehouse

Someday all this figuring out life is going to come to something, and someday, i will be where i want to be.

Sometimes..

Today i'm listening to "Sometimes" by James

Sometimes when i look deep in your eyes, i swear i can see your soul..

Inside Of Love

Today i'm listening to "Inside of Love" by Nada Surf

There's a line in this song that goes "I wanna know what it's like, on the inside of love"
Not only did it make me think about how most of the music i've been listening to recently has had some strong reference to either finding love, or losing love (yes, that is most songs), it also made me feel quite lonely. I found myself saying it to myself, as if i've never found it and want to know what it would be like. I mean, how many of us have actually been in love, for real? Or do we just say we are because we think that's how we should feel, and that's what we should say? I think i've done that too many times now..

Anyway, damn it, vinyl keeps skipping.

Can't Help Falling in Love

Today i'm listening to "Can't Help Falling in Love" by Elvis Presley

It's a fact, no matter how hard we try, we can't stop ourselves..

Higher Love

Today i'm listening to "Higher Love" by James Vincent Mc Morrow
Originally by Steve Winwood, James has done such a chilling cover of this song.

 Today, not only have i decided to give my posts a bit more of an interesting title other than the date (so original, i know) i've also been reflecting on parts of my life. I've been reflecting over all the people who have been in my life, and where they are now, and i've come to a conclusion about my own self. I've realised i'm more of a bruised person than i thought i was. It all makes sense now, how it's so easy for me to cut people out, and how i can so easily switch off emotions for people. It's all because i'm so god damn scared to get close to anyone, ever again. This is probably cliche, and totally common with like, everyone on the planet, but i deal with it in a strange way i guess. I'm not totally sure though why i decide to write this all out on here, whoever's reading. I guess, like i said before, it's some kind of therapy. It's like sending off everything i'm feeling into the open, without witnessing peoples reactions, like, it just disappears into thin air.. although it doesn't.. it's the internet..

 For me, when something goes wrong in life, i look into something else to cover up how lost or hurt im really feeling. For example, a recent breakup has pushed me into travelling places, yeah you could turn round and say that's a good thing, but is it really? Should i really mask my problems like this? I can't help it really.. i've been looking into working and travelling in canada for a year, through a programme bunac? Canada is the one place i really want to go.
 Anyway i guess you're wondering what this song has to do with it all..

 Answer?
 Everything.

 The lyrics go
Think about it, there must be higher love, down in the heart and in the stars above, without it, life is wasted time.. bring me a higher love.

 For me, this higher love, is the thing we're all looking for in life. That one idea or place in ourselves we all hope to achieve one day. Happiness? Although happiness is only a mood, it's something we all want, and when we have it, we don't appreciate it, then when it's gone and we're unhappy, we want it back? This higher love is what i'm constantly looking for, when something goes wrong, i move on so quickly to find something else to give me the same rush, or happiness, that i had before.

23/1/12

Again i'm sorry for the lack of posts.. okay, so two? I know there's no agreement that this should be a daily thing, but it somehow ended up that way, and now it feels odd when i miss a day, especially as each day there's so much great music i'm listening to. Besides, there's what? Two people reading this?

So anyway, today i'm listening to Midnight Oil. Ever heard of them? If not they are definately a band to check out. I recommend you give "Blue Sky Mining" a listen. The album title itself is enough to make you wanna listen.
Their song "Beds are Burning" which is not on that album has been my song for today. The lyrics are pretty brief, but there is a meaning there. Goes like this
How can we dance when our earth is turning, how can we sleep when our beds are burning?
It's pretty much a political song. I think most of the greatest songs that were ever writtend lyrics based on political events or something to do with whatever is going on in the world. I guess it's because there's so much to write about, and sing about, and everyone can relate to it. Which is what makes a good song really. When people relate to something, they like it.

20(21?)/1/12

Today i'm listening to "He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother" by The Hollies

This is such a beautiful song, words cannot describe how i feel listening to this..

18/1/12

Today i'm listening to "Better Day" by Ocean Colour Scene

Not only do i love the band, but the songs they've produced are in my opinion, majorly underrated.

Then the nightmares come and you get blown away, and up in your room your walls are cold, you find your head is holding out, for the welcome of a better day..

16/1/12

Today i'm listening to "Comfort In Sound" by Feeder

Days like this and i feel that sound is the only comfort out there..
We fall right in, and suffer the sins..

14/1/12

Today i'm listening to "Smile" by Cheap Trick

The first thing i say to people when they're down is "smile". As if somehow you expect it to make everything better for them..
But, i have this theory. Whenever I make myself smile, trying to make myself feel better, i find myself thinking of something. Something that i would smile about. Something that makes me happy, or feel better. So maybe, we all have something in our lives to smile about, we just decide not to, because it's so much easier to dwell on the bad stuff. So, just flash a smile, even if just the once. What's on your mind?

12/1/12

Today i'm listening to "Summer and Dusk" by Dashboard Confessional

There's nothing i love more than discovering new songs, or even new bands. Losing yourself in all their music, because at first, it seems endless. It's so great finding new music, because you somehow find new ways to feel when you listen to it.
 Music acts as a playlist to your life. When I find a group of songs that i love, they are played constantly for what? The next month at least. I associate them with whatever's going on in my life at the time. And then i find new songs, and create a whole new playlist. The previous ones when listened to, now and then, bring back the memories from that "chapter" in my life as if they just happened yesterday. People say music isn't that incredible? Yeah, right..


Some things tie your life together, slender threads and things to treasure, days like that should last and last and last..

11/1/12

Today i'm listening to "Joey" by Concrete Blonde

It's bizarre for me to think about most of the songs i listen to, cus most of them are so sad, or as some people would put it "depressing" but for me there is no depressing song, i really do find comfort in sad or emotional songs. They give me some kind of strength that i can only get from these kind of songs. Even on a good day, i will put a sad song on. So yeah, you may be thinking, what? Why listen to sad songs? Cus they only bring you down right? I think i've always been more comfortable living in sadness. I'm not afraid to be sad. Quite frankly, i'd much rather be comfortable in sadness and feel something than be, i guess, fake happy? And not feel anything at all.

So anyway, this song is super sad, but it's also the kind of song i'd belt out the lyrics to in my worst singing voice. Cus although it's a sad song, it makes me happy.

10/1/12

Today i'm listening to "All You Need Is Love" by The Beatles

If this is true, then we don't have anything to worry about..

Falling in love with folk

So, today i'm listening to folky type music.
I always have liked folk music, but recently i really have started to develop a love for it.
Not just folk, but alternative singer-songwriters, who, although are not widely known, have really good music.
There's something special about it to me, the rather "Cute" lyrics and sound make it so easy to fall in love with. There's a lot of emotion in these songs too you know, i think this is what makes them special..
For anybody who's curious and wants to check out some new music that might surprise you and make you fall in love too, then check out the following:

Aidan Hawking
Landon Pigg
Ben Howard
Olin And The Moon
The Weepies - personal favourite of mine
Ray LaMontagne - another favourite

You may, may not have heard of these guys, but if you have, then great.

4/1/12

Today i'm listening to "Again I Go Unnoticed" by Dashboard Confessional

One of the worst feelings you could get is the feeling of being unnoticed. The feeling that, well, nobody really cares enough to notice you..

The television steals the conversation, exhale, another wasted breath, again it goes unnoticed.

3/1/12

Today I'm listening to "Oh Those Eyes" by The Vagrants

Eyes can be deceiving..

We Might As Well Be Strangers..

I heard somewhere once, that relationships are hard, because the only thing harder is being alone.
I've found this to be true, from a recent breakup, which now makes for the second failed relationship within the space of three months..

You spend so much time with one person, that when they're no longer around, you can't help but feel a little bit lost. Lost with what to do with yourself, and your life for that matter. Because just for even a moment, you thought you were happy, and everything made sense. Then it all falls down on you, and you actually act surprised, surprised that something could go wrong, and make you feel this way. Seeing as you were so "happy" before.

Oh well, here's to the new year right? To make a load more mistakes, and of course, write about them.

Today i'm listening to, well "We Might As Well Be Strangers" by no other than the great Keane.
This song i can relate to today. Which i love. Even if a song has one line that you can pick out and go, wow this totally fits into my life right now, it's like they're talking about me, then it's gonna be a song for you.